am i hiding in the garden....

I only have memories of being astonished that Adam and Eve could be so foolish as to think they could possibly hide from God ~ but lately I've been trying to find the message for me in these 'ridiculous' and 'obvious' stories.  Last night as I was drifting off to sleep ~ this question popped in to my mind ~ Am I hiding in the garden....

Am I Hiding in the Garden

Am I hiding in the garden
trying to cover up my shame?
Do I respond to His loving voice
when He calls to me by name?

Am I hiding in the garden
each day I spend away
from His perfect word and fellowship
and the times that I should pray?

Am I hiding in the garden
when my sins I still deny
with shallow, careless, empty prayers
that perpetuate more lies?

Am I hiding in the garden
when I hold on to a grudge
stand my ground and justify
the reasons I won't budge?

Am I hiding in the garden
in the busyness of life
trading peace and fellowship
for vain pursuits and strife?

Am I hiding in the garden
still listening to the snake
my love and peace and fellowship
he strives each day to take?

Confess my sins!  Call out to God
and let His heel crush
the lies that keep me hiding here
underneath this brush!

I've learned a precious lesson
from Adam and his wife
Stay close to God and never doubt
I need Him in my life

Are you hiding in the garden?
Cry out to God and see
your loving Father waits for you
and He will set you free!

tangled...

tangled in my whirling thoughts
not knowing what to do
fearing failure, time flying by
each day an older you

sweet child of mine, i've done my best
to train you all i know
to love and live in righteousness
so to Him you'll always go

you trip, i gasp, i fear i've failed
panic grips my heart
reminded again, not mine but His
a priceless work of art

tangled in my whirling thoughts
the devil smells my fears
dropped to my knees i ask and pray
my prayers i know He hears

back in the game i guide again
i'll coach you every day
still in my care He's trusted me
to guide you to His way

you see, you learn, it finally clicks
your heart continues to grow
each challenge that He gives us
is so that we can know

when tangled in our whirling thoughts
we must kneel down and pray
we both will grow and be shaped more
like His son each day

dear friend...

To lose someone we love can create a storm of emotions in our hearts ~ whether gone Home or moved away ~ in the best of circumstances or the worst ~ the pain and heartache can cloud our vision, obscure truth and hold us captive....

dear friend ~ I pray for your clear view of God and your absolute freedom in Christ....

dear friend...

Hurt and broken, you shed angry tears
Who or what feeds all of these fears

You speak of our God, your prayers and His peace
But these bitter tears do not seem to cease

I know that you struggle, you must learn to let go
Forgiveness, not anger is what you must sow

History shows us that heroes will rise
Kindness and wisdom ~ no wrong in our eyes

We love them and trust them and give them our heart
Knowing, yet forgetting ~ one day we may part

Isaiah has shown us great men can out-shine
Our full view of God, if at the wrong time

Although we are weak, our God knows what's best
Moving them on, so in Him we'll rest

I miss you, dear friend, but his timing is right
He's called us to battle, and this is His fight

Pushed away from our friends, but drawn near to our Lord
He fights these tough battles with the Truth of His Sword

Sisters and friends in Christ you can trust
I love you, dear friend ~ He told us ~ we must

This very day I am praying like Paul
That God give you wisdom to soon see this all

Trust Him and love Him, dear friend ~ let Him heal
your heart and your spirit ~ His power is real

One day soon, I do pray, you'll know peace ~ deep and true
Until that day comes, I'll be praying for you....

In the day King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord.... Isaiah 6:1a

slaying dragons

How much do I weigh to day
how do you think I look?
Should it really matter?
Let's consult another book

Self-esteem, personal pride
it's time to put yourself first
You deserve a break today,
no wait, you'll only look worse

Eat more ~ eat less ~ I'll never get this right
Hit the gym
~weigh in
~~man my jeans are tight

Think about it, plan ahead
never let it go
Wear a baggy sweater,
maybe it won't show

You can do this ~ you can fix it
make this weight loss snappy
then finally you'll be so slim
just maybe you'll be happy

Really?! Truly?! do I believe this?
Absolutely NO!
Peace and joy and a walk so strong
I've got to let this go!

My body is His temple
to glorify His name
my fears and insecurities
are only to His shame

A steward of this holy place
is what I am to be
In my choices honor Him
and I will be set free!

Nourish my soul in His word
morning noon and night
then caring for my body
will no longer be a fight

Thank you Father for the truth and strength
found only in Your word
A faithful servant I will be
Your message I have heard

Each day, each hour and every thought
I give my life to You
Destroy this idol that lives in me
restore my heart and make me new

The accuser had me for a moment
broken bruised and shattered
You slayed this dragon in my life so I could
remember all that mattered

I am Yours, loved and saved
and here for just a season
To tell the world of Your gift of love
You gave for Your own reason

Idols gone and strength restored
Your mercies know no end
With all my heart I thank You God ~
my Savior and my Friend

a moment with God...

One step
~One slip
~~One trip
~~~One tumble
In to a great abyss I stumble
Moments ago so sure and clear,
How did this happen?
Why am I here?

Never
~Never
~~ Never again
Yet here I am ~ wondering when
~When did I slip?
~~What did I do?
All that I want
~is to be close to You.

Your dear servant Job knew just what to say
~and I remember, Your way is not my way

The heat of this fire is removing the dross
The pain that I suffer will not be a loss
Impurities gone, this saint more refined,
More valuable than gold, this servant will shine

The pain and the strain that I'm feeling this day
Are the chisels and blows of the Potter to His clay
Making and moulding this servant He loves
To be wise as a serpent ~ but gentle as a dove

Not a failure but a trial -
the accuser's a liar!
I welcome the trustworthy
Refiner's fire!

Fooled no more by life's discomfort and pain
These trails and hardships shall end as my gain

Stepping and climbing
~Gaining more ground
A moment with God
~Has turned me around!

No more smoke, just the fire
Such brilliant light
I will rest in His comfort
Find strength in His might

This journey continues from glory to glory
Each one will have his own unique story

Thank you my Father for the gift of Your Son
Continue to shape me 'til my work here is done